J.Z.Z.

The wind has blown

The seasons have gotten stronger and changed quicker

There is no denying that passion still lingers through the cracks of broken trust

A once best friend has transformed into a tourist in Eutopia

Though my tongue I shall bite to prevent breaking your made-up image

I will never forgive the reasons you chose to turn your nose up

Love changed you but I made you

I handed you swag and a pair of pumps in a duffle bag

I granted you abstract while you rocked Baby Phat

The brightest star has faded within you

You no longer hold the same place in my heart

Replaced you shall not be but let go you will be

I keep the positive energy within me

I'm glad that I was able to change someone's life for a greater purpose than intended

Love, oh love

How you swept the closest being right from under my nose

I pray that there will never be a stormy night when I recieve a phone call from a familiar number asking for guidance

Voicemail has plenty of options for you

From my hands I let you go into the galaxy

My blessing I give

Just hoping you don't end up needing GPS

The Rising Crystals' love has diminished into dust

Blowing in gravity with new seeds to plant

Keep praying

I love you

I'll Send You A Postcard

There is nothing left in my room
I'm leaving today
Don't want to look back, just erase it all.
Let the new vibes melt within
I didn't say good-bye because there was never a hello
My dreams are coming into reality
Thank you, I live.
I had to endure you to make sure the living was breathing
I fought the fire and stayed the night away
When this dove flew, your ego bled uncontrollably
I'm leaving on a good note
....No note at all
Forget me as I shall you
For the night was just born

A Timeless Record

I was peppered sprayed until my eyes seen Nirvana

I played the fool by allowing myself to limit and lower my standards

You were the objective

But even though my skills played cautiously, The emotions I bottled up

Quicksand was mistaken for solid ground

Then my mind I could not turn back around

You sly dog, you!

Our friendly flirtation brewed a volcanic eruption

Playing the innocent role you tried to evaporate my being

Taken what matters most to me every time our lips met

Now, I'm going to take you for a walk in the park

To recap your loss

I'm not here to laugh, beg, cry, or even justify

I'm here as light, while you openly play in the dark alleys

I found you through the trail of condoms you left

Giggled to myself as I witnessed your game

But I always win, so there is no game to play

While you haven't mourned your loss yet

I'm building a new life

You're not half the person people see you to be

But you're twice the person I figured you'd be

You see, I reached a new level

While you constantly trip over your dignity and who you're trying to be

I'm always going to be captain of the ship

You just became "man over board!"

Now let me re-introduce myself

With two fingers in the air

Peace!

Aurora Borealis

I see spaceships over the ocean at night
It calms the waters
Revives the temple where I lay my head
The new morning beams awaken the spirits
It is time for brighter beams to nourish my roots

A Kiss Is A Quiet " I Love You "

Hello readers! I'm in the process of making a lot of moves dealing with my career. I haven't really spoken to anyone about what I'm doing but, I'll just say that everything is going to change! It's not going to happen overnight but, I'm just keeping VERY positive and secretive about this...shhhh!... I'm turnin' tables up in this bitch! I'm loving life right now, as I always do! Things are where they should be and I'm truly grateful for everything I have been blessed with. A lot has been on my mind about certain situations that I'm torn about. I have no regrets, ever. I view everything as a lesson and a stepping stone. My life wouldn't be how it is if I dwell on a lot of things that have occurred. Some decisions may hurt but, in the end, I'm happy and that's all that matters, right? right.

My love life...*GASP*... Yes, love life!!, is going AMAZING! It's a great thing when two souls that have an extreme amount to offer come together as one. I never really thought I would be able to have someone that adds on to who I'am. No one completes you but you. I don't depend on anyone for anything! I have learned not to expect anything from anyone. If you can't add to my being then why bother? Gladly, I have a secret place to retreat to. We shall be the ultimate power couple!

Kiss....I kiss you there and I feel it here....I've never wasted a kiss, ever. I never comprehended how people can just be at nightclubs and " make-out". Your body is a temple and if you choose to grant access to someone....make sure they respect and cherish it! A kiss allows two body energies to zap at a touch of lips. It purifies your love zone while booting your Kama Sutra levels. To me sex and kissing is giving up a piece of who you are. Too bad not many people can really indulge in the true meaning of a kiss and the genuine definition of SEX. The secret behind a perfect kiss? you have to mean it.

A kiss is a quiet " I love you".

Photo by: Theodore Urban, Welcome back from Italy!.

Savoring A Human

In this dark corner he wept
Finished and raised up
Looked in the mirror and fixed his hair
Gently placed that smile on his face that brightens everyone's day
He knew his place in your heart
There was nothing he could to
Tried to accept it
He found himself gawking into space
Not empty but full of space
Maybe in another lifetime we could be....or not
He keeps on trying to defeat this
He is at war with these feelings
Feelings that shouldn't be
He catches himself wishing that tingling sensation to dry up
There is no doubt in his mind where you belong
But he can't
His karma is already tainted by speaking of this
He even tried savoring a new flavor but it felt like acid to his taste buds
You carry your poker face so well
This allows him to make the ripping of the vein in his heart that leads to you easy
Stonger he grows
I guess you'll never know how wonderful he really is
He doesn't mind because its not where it is
It's only where he wants to be
Better sooner than later
I guess you'll never know how wonderful he really is
Fuck!, this cigarette isn't lasting long enough
This too shall pass
On a morning sunset it will all diminish
But savoring you he shall not forget
forgive me
It's time to go

Epicenter

You see, down there was no place for me
I admired
Almost tripped down there
But you see, life, life, life
ahhh yes
It adores my aura
I unconsciously end of where I want to go
But, I almost always end up where I need to be
You see, we were fools
But Mama ain't raise no fool
So that character made me itch
I fell too quick
Thank God for quick reflexes
Though this made-up face conceals when my body cries
I had to let you go
Even though our souls could never depart, I know where I stand
Excuse me, but my ego just said, " I'm The top priority"
So if you aren't ready for the real deal, keep that candy pushing
It's delirious down there
And I do my best work on top
You see, these words are my own
No false pretense
My voice echoes down there
The vision is clear
You see, down there is no place for me right now

Sparkling Moon Shards

I held your hand through the storm
and now you're tell me you're leaving me for the norm
Astonished, I thought I was ready for you
I knew I was
Cried until the moon woke me up
Felt so lost even the stars looked lonely
I managed to use my hands but fell on my feet
The softness of your skin
Led the way for my fingertips
A never ending place, That only you and I knew about
My treasure was only yours but, once you get the best you always look for more
In the end you always end up with less
Conscience always told me you would settle for a whore
Even though I gave you all I had and even more
My body shakes and trembles as you caress my hair
And Im only left with an empty stare
In the mirror my questions just multipy
They come right back without a answer but, with plenty of vanity
You're so weird
Never thought about you again
I guess you weren't true
But I never thought I wasted my time
You helped me across the pond
Thank you
Love

Gladiator

In all reality My love is distant
It wraps around your world without a problem
It embelishes your mind with enchanted memories
The waves from the Dead Sea is taken from its melodic flow
Killer whales swim in circles describing the motion
Angry circus elephants lash back
I would be scared as well, to even think of such bliss
Every human desires true happiness
But My love might overwhelm you
It is true
Walking through the brave desserts, My love conquered wit
Swimming through the Nile, it accepted its truth
Leaping from the Everest, is sewed in stability
Loving those who hated it, My love recycled honor
As each speck of sand fell through the tight hole
it was preparing for the takeover
Though My love's holder was worried that the dogs would never come home
It kept its aim
It is true
My love has built it's hardness to an eleven on Moh's scale
But it's gentle as a pearl
All this time the holder asked if they were ready for the blessing
My love never responded
But the answer was soon revealed with a question
Are you ready for My love?
It is true

Heartbreak Hotel

The muttering silence and whispering walls talked about me while the full moon's glare sneaked in my window
crawling the the creeks of the floor
My heart's chambers collapsed
the footsteps got closer...
I've never experienced such vivid pain
Thoughts in my mind played obsolete
My throat was dry
Hands were dirty
The creaking doors slowly opened
My windows were nailed shut
Each nail hammered in with the tool of my damnation
Wimpering like I was 5 and it was my frist horror film
A silent scream awakened my senses
first hit across my face
second hit, I hit the marble floor
these eyes bled tears at the memories that slowly caressed my veins
my life was depleted
I managed to kick over the only source of protection
my candle brewed angry flames
all these prized possesions were going to become yesterday's tomorrow
I ran until my feet developed blisters
Completely out of breath
But every step I took led me one step back
...so long heartbreak hotel...
Never again shall I me charmed by your wicked smile
Not again will you taste the sweet nectar from my lips
....heartbreak hotel may have many victims trapped...
But my soul and spirit is way too grand for that
Never again heartbreak hotel

Rise Of The Crystals

He's Traumatized By Hopes Touch
Cursed By Venus's Lips
Ruled By Mercury's Glow
He Still Hasn't Found What He Is Looking For
Leaning Over The Glass Banister
He Leaps into The Wishing Well
The Well Devoured By Passion That Was Remembered By Yesterday
Bold Actions Meander Through The Broken Glass
"Cry My Love, Its Ok"
Yet His Ego Conceals The Imperfections....If There Are Any
Jumped In His Sleep
That Endless Fall That Leads No Where But Concentrated Thought
"Smile" That Voice Said Again
He Has Overcome The Ruins Of Ancient Lust
He Conquered Not Being A Stepping Stone
At Last The Wind Blows In His Desire
Dictate The Revolving Axis With The Prints Of His Finger
Having These Emotions In A Bind
Constricting Those Who Threw Rocks At His Glass House
London Was All The Equation Needed
Divide The Glass In His Heart
But Please Don't Subtract That Knife From His Back So Quickly
"Love Lies Within Oneself
The Breath Of The Fijian Meadows Was All He Needed
...No One But London...
Clear And Pure As The Precious Bond They Hold
Karma Could Not Touch Such Force
The Prayers Sent By The Greek Gods Were Answered
A Blooming Flower Was Delivered
And Now The Universe Is Shaken By Such Power
How Can These Two Forces Collide?
Pluto Was Casted When They Were Born
Yet They Know Not Of Such Incredible Alignment They Hold
Let Their Silk Petals Fall On A Land Drained
Aware The Seasons
Alert The Seas
Awaken The Prodigy
They Have Arrived ....


Peace, Love, Music, And Sex

Beau Averee

E I G H T E E N

As I embrace the healing moonlight
my mind consumed on why I was being consumed and devoured my dissimilarity
only 6 years living in what I knew was hell
I knew that I could heal the worldwhy was the world being chained down by champagne and caviar?
why does it make you feel superior?
A class of tenI was asked "what is your one wish?"
My answer?
" To make the world feel how I feel"
the 10 expected me to pour out sorrow and misunderstaning behavior
Far from my truth
I admired the winds swift lashes on my body
I melted to feel the sun's sensation caress my skin
Appreciated my mother's yells
Respected my father's decision of abandoning memeditated to the song the trees whispered
laughed at the bee's sting
experienced atroprojection
visited my deceased grandmother in her dreams
" I love you so much!" I yelled as I left her dream
My grandmother being carefully lowered 6 feetprior eighteen years of me traveling through the portal of life
I wanted to be saved!
I wanted to feel what the rest felt"SAVE ME!
"From what?
I didnt live in the Hamptons
I was blessed with unconditional love
I didn't have a family dinner every Sunday
I knew how to talk to God
I didn't recall what my salvation was for
I lived a great lifeone day walking with my mother to my school
I pretended to faintwoke up kicking and screaming
" Grandma I coming with you!, I promise I won't make the tea too hot this time! Just please come take me!"
My mum stared at me with a blank face
".. I always made her tea too hot.." she said
from then on I was casted seas away to South America
In hopes of me recieveing the blessing
I was lowered into a well by three priests
My mother calling the church continuously
"Is my baby ok? He's not crazy you know, he just needs God in his life, his plane departs tomorrow at six and I will see him at twelve."
"We know, I'll call as soon as we are done and we will take him to the airport ourselves. "
Well grandma I'm finally here with you hope I didn't keep you waiting too long
I played with the winds boomerangI joked with the sun''s heat waves
I understood why my father abandoned me
But I could'nt process why my mum cried everyday
I just want to be like the rest

T I T A N I U M

I died today
But the Tigerʼs eye gave me back my breath
I forgave that last drop of love that aided me in survival
I resented that smile that abounding me with artificial hope
My promised future was now but a mere design
This bird has flown...
I never realized how massive these wings were
How piercing and mesmerizing this heart beat sang
How sharp these claws gleamed
This heart still dripped on the white satin sheets we declared love on
Tainted with passion
I inhaled those sheets to absorb our glorious chemistry
Yet these elements fashioned Pyrite
I will always be wineAnd you will always be E&J
I may have died todayBut a phoenix by no means looks back
I suit richer in Father timeʼs glass
While you become tart in each sip
This bird has flown

The Healer

I can't breathe because you're still here
I can't write because my flowing tears have conquered
I feel the ghost of my past haunting me
Torturing me with every engraved flashback
Yet you're millions of footprints away
I don't consume your mind as you do mine
My hand is numb
My breathe is cold
For you my heart still beats
Damn Fate for allowing the weeping trees to collapse!
Yearning to nuture
You're weary
I've been deprived
Not just from my dignity
But from my spirit
This land was mine before it became ours
I have lived in the darkest age
Though it may seem I have overcome
The chambers of my heart have created a maze
My heart still burns like the morning sun
Baby it's your after glow
Iam that moon
Iam that sun
Longing for another day...


Beau Averee

Magic Brought The Cure

I remember my first genuine ugly scar
Not too far from yesterday
But miles away from today
Couldn't fathom how you managed
My skin always glowed
Envied complexion actually
You took your dagger
Stabbed me and twisted it in my soul
Pulled it out quickly with chunks of flesh still on that glorious blade
I embraced it like a warrior
No flinching, crying, pleading, or rushing for aid
Yes I mended that wound
No the walls didn't cave in
How could you possibly and succesfully seduce one of my right hands?
I could've slowly sliced that hand off
But my system processed it beneath me
I had a notion:
Decieving Queens always had a tea party
Yes queens sip on my marinated blood!
One thing is for sure
Once you draw blood from a Eutopian and indulge in it
You're cursed for all eternity
Did you know Karma was my mother?
And boy is she an overprotective one!
You shall beg for her mercy down on your knees
She won't budge...trust me
How will that taste?
Well not twice as nice as Heaven like my blood was
I was healed and emerged like no other
Most try to find the cure but they only receive a temporary potion that will help them along the way until black crows come to their rescue
I was chosen
Just remember don't fuck with a mother's son because you will find out how it will taste

Love, Peace, and Sex

Beau Averee