Thursday, May 27, 2010

When's The Last Time You've Really Loved?

(Please play song while reading blog post to experience the raw moment)

Last Night, Kings of Leon's "Use Somebody" became my favorite all over again. It sparks something in my soul that hasn't been seen, felt, heard, tasted in a long time. Sometimes you forecast how wonderful and revived love can be. Sometimes its really hard trying to stay true to who you are because of so many obstacles and narrow-minded spirits. But I live, and I live well. I've come to good terms with the phrase "Fuck You". Sometimes you just need to go to a top of a mountain and scream will all you're might. We humans need to release in order to fully understand ourselves and be able to freshly and naturally enter another romance. Let's truly be ourselves and see what being who we are brings us...

... I dare you.

Friday, April 30, 2010


Nothing excites me more than you, my love.

With every breath of you, not even life can compare

The rain forest storms don't even invigorate my senses like you can

Diamonds melt like ice when I feel the adrenaline rush you give me

This isn't a spell you've casted

The rush has pumped through my blood ever since that August Summer my mother decided to encourage her portal to produce

I've subconsciously lived for you

Through you

By you

Virgo has never met it's match, but you, you make me helpless



You make me surrender

...I surrender

Rest In Power Alexander McQueen


Friday, March 26, 2010

A Bitch Named Hope

I toss and turn


I feel like I'm slacking, still trying to make a way out of no way

I've ran thousands of miles to drink you up

I miss you

What has happened to us?

Have I bruised you?

I've tryed my best to believe in the butterflies, but the odds seem to win and I can't help but to feel that colorless void

So many masks to uncover

So man bridges to build

A lot has enlightened my pathway, but many have willingly pissed on evolution

Tomorrow may seem a few hours away, but yesterday still stays here

Here with us, with so many trys

How can I recover what I always knew I would lose?

Clarity screams my name, but her pitch is so vague

It's been a while since the palm trees have blessed the wind

Have we missed the signs?

The concrete breaks as your sweet voice caresses my skin

You're still here, even after all the shit I've done, you're still here

You remain faithful

I've never forgotten, but I've seemed to search for a greener grass

No luck...

You'll be here

He'll be here

She'll be here

We'll all be here

We're just here for the moment

Saturday, February 27, 2010


Rusty white wires

Howling black vivid memories

Within the pounding walls of my heart lived a lion with glass eyes

Throughout this dark land lies some kind of pure hope

Searching far and wide for destiny's unknown kiss

Paranoid in yesterday's hazy mystery

Tomorrow could never be so close

Enchanted willows begin to sprout walking leaves

Whispering rain summons the pixies

A world trapped in a mirrored box with nothing but God's light to save it

I'm still brave

I still wear my wit on my sleeve

I still sip beer from a champagne flute

I still rise above your expectations

Peer through the choking glass and welcome a new era

Moments after Love's war, I stand here before you

Everything still looks the same, but one thing

I can't see you anymore

As hard as I try to squint to make you magically appear, I can't

A weary tear falls for our memories, but a sharp grin forms shortly after

You didn't make it

You weren't strong enough

You weren't charming enough

You weren't real enough

Love takes no prisoners and only sees combat

Only a handful of us can say that we have survived being a soldier of love

And Love can say only a few of us have been true to it

I walk these streets holding my head up high because only God and I know my relationship with love

I have sacrificed love for the good life with no regrets

I'm blind to Love's sneaky bleeding colors

You had your chance, but didn't own up to your hype

Luckily, I don't kiss and tell

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Morning Glory

Well, Well, Well, we meet again. This time, I've managed to relocate to the other side of the spectrum. This year has definitely been a complete whirlwind! (especially in the career department). I have taken everything in and produced a mellow scent of positivity. I hold not one drop of anger in my blood stream, for that I can thank art. It's crazy how we can just look over the obvious, life is an actual being. I have experienced some of the most bizarre and unbelievable moments, and in my mind, they're constant reminders of the life I'm eager to be living. So that is why I'm revamping my whole blog, from the typical celebrity media, to the day-to-day experiences I encounter as a growing fashion stylist, along with my discovery of fresh and innovative art .

I can say that my life is unfolding right before my eyes and it all feels like an outer body experience. It's almost overwhelming, but I'm loving every second of it.

I'm learning. I'm laughing. I'm loving. I'm growing. I'M LIVING.

Purpose in life: To live for art.

Get ready to departure! It's definitely going to be one hell of a ride!


Sunday, October 11, 2009


Tiffany Evans, Beast.

Just turned 17 in August.


"Umm, excuse me... and I don't mean to sound too forward, but where have you been all my life?"

After moon dancing under the club's hypnotizing lights, nirvana hit us

This universal language challenged my beliefs

The weeping electric guitar played symphonies that only Greeks Gods could witness

But today, today I witnessed the gospel

Praising it

The blood roses dried up

My melodramatic antics vanished

Your stern approach had hold of my art

My life

Yet my mind processed a dark veil

"Look, another one"

Don't think, just speak

These four words sent a massive wave through the insides of my blood cells

Never have I done this, but there is a first time for everything, right?

My obsession with one, duplicated

Truly amazing how your whispering touch healed my concealed pain

Concealed pain that was hidden underneath the Loch Ness monster

"You feel like heaven"... your heart spoke

"Just don't take it all away" mind hoped

I can't breathe

In the smokey dark, there, right there, it was hidden

Rotating lights dancing along an intoxicated soul

Feels, feels like the first time

A few sex drives with a few glowing shots, perfect

This fantasy was more incredible than my childhood imagination created

We sweat lust, licked horror, and found love...with three

The sum of us

I don't want to open up my eyes

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


With single rain drops

Let the wonder unfold

Jump with no thought

Live with leopards in the wind

But remember, never justify your love

Look beyond your mind's gibberish talk

Discover Eutopia

Rely on the sun's gold

Dance in the moon's private glare

Drink the Grigio of passion and embrace tomorrow's laughter

...become addicted

Single raindrops

Silver chants with harmonies of delighted angels

Live in this moment

Right here

Hear the calling before your eyes

Sleep to live, not to dream

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Beautiful, Dirty, Rich

Summer just called Autumn and said "Good morning!". My life, my life is art and art is my life. It has completely turned around, my life that is. I used to live a life of trying to get those who were lost onto the the other side where there is plenty of sunlight and champagne. I never acknowledged the struggle and toll that all my efforts took on me. Efforts shouldn't take a toll on you. I eliminated those who carried an extreme amount of negative energy in my life. Sadly I used to focus on those people because I thought there was hope... hope shmope. It's funny because now I wake-up every morning ecstatic! I have everything I could possibly want in life. Those people who keep wishing and who are always wondering what if? are those who are never satisfied. Stop wondering and start realizing how blessed you really are! whether you're in a relationship or not, whether you hate your job or don't have one at all, whether you love or hate yourself. You're not happy because you're not allowing yourself to be! My best friend Juicy Jamz and I realized that we are not throwing away numerous years of friendship down the drain over nonsense. That's what we have to start doing, live. Live people, live! Fuck the bullshit and live your life! Everything is going amazingly well for me because I opened up to a new world. This thing, this box society tries to put us in, burn it.Over and over again I tried to find the reason why everything went wrong, when in reality everything had to go wrong for it to be right. - Beau Averee

"You lead a life that most people envy" as my dearest friend schooled me about myself. Those people who mask themselves as friends and continue to talk about who you are as a human being are the ones who envy your energy. Delete those people! As hard as it was for me, I did. When you have so much history with someone, it's hard, but when it's dealing with living a greater life.. later for that. I can now say that I've open my eyes to what's really in front of me. I don't call my close friends, 'friends' anymore because friends are temporary. Family is more like it. We take care of each other like a family. That's my sister. That's my cousin, so on and so forth. WE ARE A FAMILY. My soul feeds of off energy. I am now able to distinguish and organize. I have always been a happy being, always. No matter what goes wrong I manage to stay blissful. many people tried to take that away from me.... and failed. I am: still writing my book, going to college, transferring in the spring semester, working a job that I love, living art with my family, working on numerous projects, embracing an amazing person who adds on to my happiness, traveling more, and in a complete state of bliss.

Life isn't measured by you and I but rather the actions we take. The people we seek. How we live it and how we treat it. Life said to me " I'm going to treat you exactly how you treat me". For that I am grateful. The easiest things in life are the things that corrupt our lives: grudges, hate, lies, credit cards. But if we are responsible and mature we can manage. I don't hate anything, I mean it. I've gotten scrutinized because of it, "How can you not hate murder, rape, cheating!!??". Simple, Love shall heal and I can overcome anything. Keeping that mindset allows your wonderful mind to keep aim of the bigger picture. You get the energy that you put out. It's so much easier to hate than to love, isn't that the truth?